Stupid questions I can't seem to answer

I have a question... I may sound stupid or unreasonable but I'll still ask my stupid question... What is it about me that makes you hate me so much? You'll tell me you don't hate me... OK. Then what is it about me that doesn't allow you to love me? Am I that bad? Am I that unbearable and horrible? Parents are supposed to love right? Love no matter what... Right? Then what is it about me that is so appalling to you? Am I that bad? What is it about me that you can't stand? I believe in a God who is perfect and makes things perfectly... and yet the way you treat me makes me think that He screwed up when creating me, makes me think that something about me must be wrong. I'm not saying I'm perfect... Yeah, I do stupid stuff but aren't you supposed to love me no matter what I do? I thought I had won over all this thing, I thought it's all over. But I was wrong again. It comes back, always. It comes back and it tears me apart over and over and over again. Just the fact that you all think I'm insane... It hurts. But you wouldn't know cause I would never tell you. So if anyone can answer this stupid question of mine please do cause I can't seem to figure it out. Why can't you love me the way I am and maybe, just maybe, for who I am?