Things I thought about today...

I think I should slow down all this... I write every day at least 1 or 2 stuff...
I am proud of my guy... I am proud of you for apologizing to that punk. And you can't imagine how happy I am that you're finally gonna have your own drum set. I feel almost like I am getting those drums...
About today... we talked about the future and I am a little worried but I know that if we stick together and obey God He will take care of us and make everything even better than we could imagine. I trust Him with my life so I am sure that He will work things out... And as long as it's His will for us to be together He will make the best of everything. =)
I don't think I've ever told you what I'm about to write now... Do you know one of the main reasons I'm almost 100% sure that you are the one? You know how people usually date... They see each other and if they like what they see they get to know each other. With you it didn't happen like that... When I first saw you that Sunday it's not that I didn't like you... You are the most handsome guy ever... It's just that I started liking you and fell in love with you after I got to know you, after I was familiar with your personality. So I basically fell in love with you not only because of your looks... It's your heart, it's the person you are that I'm in love with... The good looks are like a bonus =)
I am ready to wait for you not 3 or 7 but million years (of course that doesn't mean you have to make me wait unnecessarily) But I love you and I will wait... It's not like I have a choice anyway.

Allow me to correct myself... I don't hate the rain... I hate when it's in my shoes or wetting my hair... That's all. I love looking at the rain from the inside but not be under its cold and wet drops. I also hate maths... And I am writing this on a day I don't have a maths class... That's gotta mean I hate it a lot.

Something else I thought of today while I was waiting in the rain for my bus... I believe in Jesus Christ and that is so amazing... I mean He is not just some Jesus, some guy who lived and did some miracles and died... He is The One who died to provide my salvation, The One who will be in my most hard times, The One who will rescue me when I call out to Him... The name of Jesus Christ is the most powerful name ever... That name gives purpose, hope, salvation, healing, life, love, forgiveness, completeness, encouragement. Jesus is not the kind of God who will condemn or judge, He doesn't hold me accountable for the things I've done... When I come to Him He doesn't want me to be cleaned first and then accept me. He wraps me in His arms the way I am... Dirty, stained, liar and hypocrite, robber and adulterer. He takes me to His home, puts me in His heart and then cleans me... Isn't it amazing how His love works? Isn't He amazing? Knowing that I am a sinful person and still His love in unconditional and unfailing. His arms will never get tired of waiting for me to come back. His heart will never be closed for me. His goodness, and mercy and forgiveness will never end. No matter how far I run His love is always there to hold me, fix me, make me new. His hands are always there to puck me up and He is always there to say: It's OK, just keep going. Can you imagine that when He created everything, when He was making the sun and the moon and the stars He knew that I will be born, that I will exist. And He loved me (and everyone else) before even my parents were born. When He was hanging on that cross He was thinking of us... each and everyone of us. We turn our backs on Him , we are so unfaithful and so mean... and still He has this simple love for us. We change our minds all the time... We are so erratic and weak and still His way of loving us never changes. No matter how unfaithful we are He is as faithful as He has always been. He won't change His mind. We will never hear Him say: I loved you but you know what... I don't anymore. Hallelujah for that. Hallelujah for everything You've done. I praise You my King for being My King. I praise You for everything You are. I praise You for the sacrifice. I praise You for Your love. I praise You for being the Best Father ever. I praise You for holding my past, my present and my future in Your hands. I praise You for Your patience. You must be patient. I can't imagine a man being so patient. Thank You for being a God, for being the Lord of Lords and the King of Kings. Thank You for changing me and for the promise never to stop doing that. Your word says that the one who loves You obeys You... That's what I'm fighting for... I want to be obedient and good and do all those things You command. Of course I have a lot to learn in that area but I want to do it and I am willing to pay the price. I want to be everything You've planned for me to be and I want to follow You no matter where You lead me. You've set my heart on fire and my soul is burning with the desire to be Yours... Yours and Yours alone. I can't imagine living without You now that I've tried from Your love and so I have no idea how people in the world manage to live without You in their lives... So I really want to go out there and proclaim Your truth, I want to go there and tell everyone that You are not a fairytale, You are not distant and You are not created by someone's imagination. YOU ARE REAL! You are alive! I want to tell everyone that there is a better way of living, that they have souls and those souls need salvation cause hell exists. I want to tell them that You've prepared a Heaven for those who believe in You. I want to go to Heaven but I don't want to go there alone... If I am going there I am totally bringing as much people with me as I can. I want people to see my life and say: There's something about this girl... She has something I don't and I want it too. I want people to see You in my life... Like the reflection of the sun in a mirror. You are already the Sun that makes everything so bright... I need to learn how to be the mirror. Help me be the mirror.