A "so so" Day

I don't have much time, I'm very sleepy but i was like "hey, i haven't written in a while" so i decided to give an update to all my fans around the world.
Today was a bad/good day. Had some of the bad stuff, then some good, then some bad again. I guess life just works that way. I felt stupid at church today because of a thing a few girls said to me... Anyways. At home was pretty sucky too. I miss this certain person right now. The evening was interesting cause we went for a barbecue at Bobby's house and hang out with the American peoples. It was fun, at least most of it. Then some people made me a bit mad and I'm just struggling with myself.
Last night at the prayer service I prayed for God to open up my eyes to see Him the way He is. I want to know Him, the real Him, and not my version of Him, not my idea of Him. And like in the Bibble Solomon asked for this one thing... wisdom. And I was saying something like "If i get the chance to pick one thing... money or happiness or wisdom or anything at all... The thing I would pick would be knowing the one and only true God."
And yeah... my mom is telling me at this specific moment that I disappoint Christ... but that is also how life works. I suppose my mom's right...

This is me missing you so bad...

I want my best friend back. I miss youuuuuuuuuuuu!!!
Those few days have been so crappy just because of the thought that you are miles and miles away. I miss talking to you... cause you know we can't talk that much because of the stupid minutes... I miss the fact that you can't come and pick me up from work or just having you sit next to me in church. I miss you so much =( I know you'll be back soon but i can still miss you, can't i? No one else cares about me... And i care only about you so... =(
I hope you're having fun. Cause here nothing makes sense without you. I had amazing time yesterday talking to you on the phone... You told me what you ate and i wasn't paying much attention to the information (but I do listen to you), i was enjoying hearing your voice, you sounded so excited and happy... And it made me smile. Just come back, pleaseeeeeee. Cause if something happens and I start falling apart there will be no one to fix me... That's something only you do. I miss you. I never thought I would miss you knowing that you're gonna be back in a few weeks but i do miss you so much. I said 'I miss you' around billion times so i thing I'm gonna stop now. I love you and I'm waiting for you to come back to your own 'selqnka'. =)