A "so so" Day

I don't have much time, I'm very sleepy but i was like "hey, i haven't written in a while" so i decided to give an update to all my fans around the world.
Today was a bad/good day. Had some of the bad stuff, then some good, then some bad again. I guess life just works that way. I felt stupid at church today because of a thing a few girls said to me... Anyways. At home was pretty sucky too. I miss this certain person right now. The evening was interesting cause we went for a barbecue at Bobby's house and hang out with the American peoples. It was fun, at least most of it. Then some people made me a bit mad and I'm just struggling with myself.
Last night at the prayer service I prayed for God to open up my eyes to see Him the way He is. I want to know Him, the real Him, and not my version of Him, not my idea of Him. And like in the Bibble Solomon asked for this one thing... wisdom. And I was saying something like "If i get the chance to pick one thing... money or happiness or wisdom or anything at all... The thing I would pick would be knowing the one and only true God."
And yeah... my mom is telling me at this specific moment that I disappoint Christ... but that is also how life works. I suppose my mom's right...