"Would lose not Him, but you, must one be lost..."

Now I know... What is it that I know?
I know I love You... I know I love You more than anything else, anyone else I love...
So now I'm learning to live with You. Obedience is very important, I have learned. If this is how You understand love... Then so be it... I will be obedient. Because I know that no matter how much I want something... You I want more.
And I hope I have the will and the strength to give up anything You might ask me to give up. My own desires I give up. Your desires are far better.
College, job, marriage, friends... Just name it... I give it all up for You.
I guess it's easier to say it than actually do it... Time will tell. But I pray that those words of mine become real. Nothing is to come between me and You. If my wishes are in contrast to Yours... Mine will just have to die. Oh those blissful deaths...
Nothing is more beautiful than the death of a dream or a wish in obedience to Him, Who knows better, Who has better. So I put my dreams on the altar. My plans for the future... Burn.
When I was little me and my dad used to go out for walks... And sometimes I would close my eyes, take his hand and tell him: "Dad, I closed my eyes, lead me..."
It is very surprising... Cause it is a beautiful parable.
So, Daddy... I have my eyes closed, I can't see a thing, but I believe You will not let me down. Here is my hand... Lead me...

O Love that wilt not let me go,
I rest my weary soul in Thee
I give Thee back the life I owe,
That in Thine ocean depths its flow
May richer, fuller be.